1.
Finally upgraded Hugo to the latest version. I used to think it was a hassle, but now it doesn’t seem to be; just tweaking a few variables does the trick.
I’ve also removed the Douban and recent blog activity links from my GitHub homepage. Lately, I might just vent here on the blog. I don’t like domestic platforms—Douban, Weibo, Xiaohongshu, Zhihu—they all have their own distinct crowds. Some international social apps make it hard to find friends, so maybe it’s better to manage my own data. Perhaps the blog is still my preferred way for now.
Although I’ve had thoughts about running a self-media account, I feel this isn’t the right moment. My time, energy, experiences, and topics aren’t enough to sustain a long-term self-media presence. I hope to find my own style.
2.
I finally feel a bit more relaxed. First, I resolved the thesis proposal and some confusion about applications, then dealt with finding a place to live. Although I have a To-Do List with many items, at least I can tackle them one by one now.
3.
A couple of days ago, I happily got a private room. Yes, I’ve moved out. I didn’t want to be too constrained, and I won’t look for other excuses anymore. Living on my own allows me to be alone and enjoy the process of organizing my things. More importantly, I feel like I can fully control my time, which feels pretty good.
I hope to find my own rhythm.
4.
A while back, I met a few new friends. Some coincidences and mutual understanding brought us together.
I’ve never experienced the feeling of having friends with whom I can talk about absolutely everything. Later, I realized more and more that there’s a reason we came together—it’s not just about personality, attitude, values, and so on.
This relaxed and joyful atmosphere while being together made me feel like I’ve lived again.
5.
I’ve never been a decisive person, but I hope to make some decisions quickly based on my own understanding, even if I might regret them later. But I hope it’s not blind or passive.
6. About Beijing
Beijing is getting colder, and autumn has arrived. Seeing my junior’s WeChat moments reminded me of myself a year ago. At that time, I had my own rhythm: going to the institute on weekdays and exploring the scenery or taking walks on weekends. It was truly the rhythm I liked. After moving to the Environmental Protection Park area, everything got chaotic. I used to go to the institute to work, and when tired, I’d grab my camera to take photos. Now, I haven’t picked up my camera in a long time, and even if I did, I wouldn’t have the mindset to enjoy that pleasure.
Beijing is full of smog lately, but I checked my WeChat moments and realized I complained about it around the same time last year, just a bit earlier this year. It seems everything is proceeding in an orderly fashion.
Beijing is just like that; it keeps running on its own, like a colossal entity, while I feel like I can’t find a place to settle.
7.
Just venting a bit; life goes on. Come on, do your best.
Rest when you’re tired, but don’t rest too long~
